Thoughts, Plans and Desires

A week has passed and I found school just fine. I have confirmed that my bio prof indeed committed a huge error in my grades, as well as others'. Instead of 3.5 is 5.0, making me a lister. Unfortunately, the DA happened before the discovery. Too bad! I hate the teacher for her error. Grr.

I found my teachers just fine. Although I could see some of them are quite strict. I hope that I won't be horrified or tortured by them. My blockmates are also just fine and I think we are somehow getting closer bit by bit.

I hate my schedule! I don't wan't to go to school on a Saturday especially December is coming up already! Grrr! Also, my 6 pm dismissals are really terrible! Grr! I envy those who have better schedules and can go home at 1:30.

Our P.E. subject is also quite weird. It doesn't sound like a P.E. subject...

I was also interviewed for the lecture series in 90 and figured out that it won't be held in 90 but it examiner 54. Good thing 19 there are no classes. I was asked several painful irritating questions that I rambled a lot of meaningless stuff. I can't even get to a real point. I hate people asking too many questions. But then again, I guess I should just get used to it since I will go to a lot more of like that in the future... in the real world... and I realized that I should finally really learn how to answer correctly and with sense, confidence and conviction.

Also last Friday, I experienced quite a traumatic library incident... and I admit that it was definitely my fault. I will never do that ever, again! Ever! As in never!

AuntB has finally arrived. I was excited because it meant finally moving to BF! Yey! But the move really gives me a lot of back aches! I finally rediscovered my properties! I wish we'll finally get used to it and be comfortable and be settled.

I failed to go to church last Sunday and I am so guilty because I was supposed to do my role. In addition, I am also a new member and I should start becoming a real member by actually attending weekly. Oh no! How I wish I would get back on my routines without other people pulling a suspicious stare at me as if I have no right to be there. I wish I'll be able to grow. Help me God!

After the DA and the list result without me on it, I realized how unfortunate am I for having an erroneous teacher and a crazy teacher who does not know how to appreciate. I envy others who seem innocent yet got on the list. My only consolation is that I have fellow ex-listers and that I still have something to take care of and so I could get something Latin on '08. My goal right now, since SCL is quite an impossibility, is that I could at least reach MCL or CL. But I would do all my best to hit the MCL and reach my WB uncle's level somehow... Could I still beat AT and SS? Help me God! Let your will be done!

Suddenly all the true colors of my blockmates get unleashed regarding their views and plans for our future careers. I want to work in the G/U/C/N. I actually want the job CC wants (PA). But if not, I want to work in here (FA).

Please help me God!!!

I want a lot of things. I want to do a lot of things. I want to be a lot of things. Will I ever have them? Will I ever be them?

Only God knows... I offer my life to you O God... Let your will be done... So be it...

Homeward Bound

Today’s my last day and night of my semestral break. Time really flies so fast! I didn’t even feel that my vacation is one month! I had a lot of things to do that I only felt 50% of my semestral break.

Last November 4-6, 2005, we went to WR, Subic for our TBS. We also visited historical churches before proceeding to the resort. MRF and KEG were my roommates. I enjoyed their company at first but I ended up getting irritated with their slow and vain habits. The place was not really cool and clean and the services were not really satisfying. The food was not really good except for the breakfast (because of the egg). The activities and games and events were not really good. Even the time plan was not followed. The view and setting was almost great at first but it was not really worth the expensive rates. Although I did not really enjoy the event, I can still say that I was glad I went because I finally experienced my first 3 day-2night-event without my family and proved that I can survive. I went home with my family because they also went to Subic for other reasons. I realized that I really enjoy my family’s company than my friends or anybody else. Blood is really thicker than water.

Although my vacation was not what I have expected and wished, I was able to realize and experience a lot of things and lessons such as Christianity and importance of my family. It truly brought me back to my God and my family after how many months of being with friends, classmates and school stuff. I really realized how I truly and deeply love God and my family. It’s all about returning “home”.

I hope that tomorrow will be a fresh new start for more good things to come especially for my second semester…