School Work...
My school work load is already getting on my nerves now. I get less and less time to do my extra stuff. I even officially freezed my extra-curricular activities just to catch up with my academics. That wciv paper really drives me nuts! I feel so depressed with that JoA paper! I received my paper and found out that I just got a 2.5! Almost all got a grade quite higher than that! I feel so stupid! The prof hated my views because apparently, she was an atheist, proclaiming herself as god. I hate the prof and the subject! As much as I want to enjoy learning, I just learn stuff fed by the prof and never really enjoyed it. I can’t reach the prof’s standards! It was way too high! Could anyone remind that prof that we’re only second year college and not graduate/doctorate students? We even had a groupwork that totally twisted my mind off. The result, unfortunately, was a stupid 2.0. I was so unlucky with my groupmates!
Quizzes in all subjects except bio really suck! I’m starting to like my bio prof and subject—she was not as evil as I thought on our first day. The rest, I still feel so pressured! Although I just committed one, single mistake in my polg quiz, I wasn’t able to get a perfect grade! Grrr! I envy my classmates who got perfect!
I hate PE! I definitely don’t perform well as compared to my athletic classmates!
I met my first year hum prof and she asked favor from me to help her post artworks in the bulletin board. After the task, she treated me for lunch. I always bring my own packed lunch and I was really reluctant to accept her offer. I accepted the lunch treat however. We chatted about a lot of things. Although I hated her during ‘our’ semester, I loved her after that semester when she gave me a perfect final grade. She was one of my favorite teacher from then on, despite the hate comments I hear about her from my classmates. How I wish I could return to my first year college days!
This month, we have been watching films for review/reaction. We have also attended forums about the recent political crisis. These were the privileges I got out of taking up my course. How I wish I will get to acquire more benefits and privileges to compensate for all the bloodshed and hardwork I have exerted for my subjects especially for that wciv!
On the other hand, I found a new friend, MM. I shared to her my thoughts and feelings about my academics. The guidance test interpretation did not help me, for it just proved that I have a lot of things that I should work on in my life like practicality, independence, sensitivity and benevolence. I realized however that my achievement and organization is average and that the only things that I got high on were the goal and decisiveness. I know that nothing’s wrong with heeding these advices but just as I have pursued what course I wanted instead of following that guidance career test result, I will just go with the flow and follow my heart. Those tests, no matter how scientifically accurate are not accurate as my heart and mind. I will do what I want, in moderation and balance.
Quizzes in all subjects except bio really suck! I’m starting to like my bio prof and subject—she was not as evil as I thought on our first day. The rest, I still feel so pressured! Although I just committed one, single mistake in my polg quiz, I wasn’t able to get a perfect grade! Grrr! I envy my classmates who got perfect!
I hate PE! I definitely don’t perform well as compared to my athletic classmates!
I met my first year hum prof and she asked favor from me to help her post artworks in the bulletin board. After the task, she treated me for lunch. I always bring my own packed lunch and I was really reluctant to accept her offer. I accepted the lunch treat however. We chatted about a lot of things. Although I hated her during ‘our’ semester, I loved her after that semester when she gave me a perfect final grade. She was one of my favorite teacher from then on, despite the hate comments I hear about her from my classmates. How I wish I could return to my first year college days!
This month, we have been watching films for review/reaction. We have also attended forums about the recent political crisis. These were the privileges I got out of taking up my course. How I wish I will get to acquire more benefits and privileges to compensate for all the bloodshed and hardwork I have exerted for my subjects especially for that wciv!
On the other hand, I found a new friend, MM. I shared to her my thoughts and feelings about my academics. The guidance test interpretation did not help me, for it just proved that I have a lot of things that I should work on in my life like practicality, independence, sensitivity and benevolence. I realized however that my achievement and organization is average and that the only things that I got high on were the goal and decisiveness. I know that nothing’s wrong with heeding these advices but just as I have pursued what course I wanted instead of following that guidance career test result, I will just go with the flow and follow my heart. Those tests, no matter how scientifically accurate are not accurate as my heart and mind. I will do what I want, in moderation and balance.
I really feel even more depressed about school. I hope that I’ll survive these life trials. Help me God!
posted by Quintessence at 10:16 PM
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