Academic Pressure

Almost a month has passed and I still feel so pressured and depressed with my academic performance. The worsening traffic every Tuesday and Thursday morning even ‘added more fuel to the fire’. I was almost late a lot of times for my 7:30 class. I also walked a lot of times and used the bridge just to arrive on time. I just proved that walking is really sometimes faster than riding a car (especially during traffic). The u-turn thing is really the bottleneck, the main problem of all traffic on that road. It was a good thing I still arrive in the classroom earlier than the professor for about 1-2 minutes and so I was not yet marked late. All subjects still really freak me out, especially that wciv prof and subject. Seriously, as much as I wanted to admire and praise the prof and the subject, but they really drive me nuts! It seems that I have to work extra harder on adjusting.

As much as I wanted to hang out with my new classmates, I still feel a very big gap between them and me. That is why I resort to having lunch and hanging out with my former classmates. Although we are now taking up different classes and majors, I still manage to see and eat lunch with some of them because we have same lunch breaks. I also got closer with my two former classmates who filed for LOA last semester and returned this semester. Too bad I cannot eat lunch anymore with my 1st year lunch mates because of the different schedules.

Despite the depressing situations, I still had some fortunate events like surviving a bio report that turned out to be an ‘impromptu report’. I wasn’t prepared for that report on that day because I thought that the reporting day was still far as I was the last to report. It turned out that all reports should be finished on that day. I planned everything. I wanted my report to be the greatest of them all and beat that much-praised report of my rival. I wasn’t really prepared that day! It was also the only day that I forgot my biobook! Fortunately, I remembered that I was always bringing a bio summary leaflet. It was a good thing that my topic was there! Although it was quite too comprehensive, I used it anyway. When I reported and continued to report on the more comprehensive part, my prof already told me to stop and commented that I was “well-prepared”! I can’t believe that I was able to project an illusion to my prof that I was well-prepared. Was it the comprehensive report? Was it my speech? Was it my confidence? Perhaps it was really a divine intervention. I will never forget that event. I learned my lesson to prepare my reports as soon as it was assigned to me and never let that impromptu event happen again.

Lastly, I already started working in church for my nstp subject. I finally began to feel that I have a role and purpose to fulfill in church. Although I was uncertain and doubtful at my first day, I managed to get on it and finally feel and listen to God’s calling.

I am still hoping that I would soon get adjusted in my academics and feel optimistic about things again…